Getting Out of Your Own Way

BoxedToday is my last day working a “real” job. My life is about to become something wholly different, but it still feels like one of those afternoon naps that just won’t let you loose. I feel like I can just make out the sound and vibration of the world shuffling around me, but I just don’t want to wake up and face my Sunday chores. And Monday is coming.

My house is partly packed. My plans are partly made. My life is partly this but mostly that and I think I should be scared or excited, but I’m mostly just stunned. Last week I was a Director in a large company. Next week I’m going to be a writer for, well, mostly me. I don’t really know what the future looks like exactly, but who really does?

Friends have been so wonderful and supportive. Everyone tells me that I’m brave. If this is true, I don’t think this is nearly hard as you think it is. I think that perhaps being brave is nothing more than getting out of your own way. You know what to you want to do in terrible moments, in hard times, when presented with pivotal possibilities. The question is- will you find a way to talk yourself out of doing the thing that is pounding through your pulse, that your heart says is right? Or will you pause to rationalize and listen to the voices of your own haunted past, those bullies of long gone consequences. I cheated a little though. Quit your job and it suddenly becomes a little too late to talk yourself out of anything.

I’m not saying we should all quit our jobs and strike out on our own. I’m forty-one years-old and I don’t really think last year, two years ago or five years ago that writing for a living would have been what I truly wanted to do. But I do think that life is far too short to not get out of your own way. You don’t take any of this with you, so perhaps what is most important of all is what you leave behind – your children, your charities, your art – all the beautiful things that you can orchestrate that change this world if you will simply allow yourself to. So will you do it? Will you follow your pulse? I hope so and I hope you will share what comes of it!

(More on the whole quitting you job thing over on Beyond the Margins. Check it out!)

4 thoughts on “Getting Out of Your Own Way

  1. First of all, I wish you the best of luck on your future and the path you have chosen. I do think it is brave. It is brave to seek one’s dreams out and then attempt to fulfill them, in whatever way that happens. As such, I have the greatest amount of respect for you and what you are going to do. Lastly, I read your article “Out Of My Comfort Zone” and it touched me in many ways. I was linking to your blog post when I decided to stay and read. It was exactly what I needed this morning. Thanks for the inspiration on a dreary, humid, wet, slightly less than stellar Saturday morning. All the best.

  2. Rebecca, thank you for allowing us to be at the beginning of your magnificent journey. Wishing you a quick return home and much success!

  3. I’m a bit late in posting this but I just want to offer you all the best and blessing to you each and every day. Rebecca, your words, just in this post alone, I know talks to so many of us. So many people have so much talent and blessings within themselves that never reach the surface, because our jobs and our lives do just as you said, “get in the way of ourselves” (slight paraphrase here). I myself, and I am sure others reading our works, are gaining the courage to get out of our own way, so that we can become and share who we really are with the world and what we truly have to offer as our legacy, before time comes, and it all ends. Love Love! (This is what my Military Macaw, Major Thomas Mitchell says to us) Love Love!

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